a beautiful place

Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.

- Kurt Vonnegut

and a very sad place



a Wallflower

“It's just that I don't want to be somebody's crush.  
If somebody likes me, I want them to like the real me, 
not what they think I am.  And I don't want them to carry it around inside.  
I want them to show me, so I can feel it too.”

---- Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower


I don't need an ice cream cone.

Drew: You're kind of great, Claire. You do know that.
Sort of amazing, even.

Claire: Oh, come on!
I don't need an ice cream cone.

Drew: It's not an ice cream cone.
What's an ice cream cone?

Claire: You know, "Here's a little something to make you happy, something sweet that melts in five minutes."
I'm completely cool with anything you want to say or not say, I don't need it. Besides, Ben is coming in tomorrow.
Do you want to hear my theory?

Drew: Of course.

Claire: You and I have a special talent, and I saw it immediately.

Drew: Tell me.

Claire: We're the substitute people.

Drew: The substitute people?

Claire: I've been the substitute person my whole life. I'm not an Ellen, I never wanted to be an Ellen. And I'm not a Cindy either. Although Chucks love me.

Drew: I'm sure they do.

Claire: I like being alone too much. I mean, I'm with a guy who's married to his academic career. I rarely see him. And I'm the substitute person there. I like it that way. It's a lot less pressure.


I need a road trip too. Too bad i can't drive. (sigh)


a love letter before the end of the world

To my dear love,

Where the hell have you been? I'm sick waiting for you. Before it's too late, I have some last words to say to you: 
I'm sure that you are quite satisfied with your current situation (or just being very lazy), for you haven't tried hard enough to find me. Well, you can either stay wherever you are, be with whoever you are with right now, maybe it's not going to be the end of the world after all, and maybe you'll live happily ever after without me. Maybe.  Or, you can take a chance. Come to my arms. Go on an adventure with me. And I promise you that we'll have the most amazing 5 days in the rest of our lives. 
If fortunately the world doesn't come to an end too quickly, we can figure out other things afterwards. :)

to be honest,
I don't believe in the end of the world
as I don't believe in love, 
not just yet
(and now that I'm writing here the radio is playing Britney Spear's Till the World Ends, creepy..)

but if it is going to be the end of the world
and if you are in fact the love of my life
why not give us a try?
so this is my proposal to you.

Yours sincerely-- (not yet, but will hopefully be) forever and ever and ever,


p.s. Mind the time, darling. We don't have much days left. Tick-tock.