GO. SEE.

GO. SEE.

12.31.2012

a beautiful place


Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.

- Kurt Vonnegut































and a very sad place

http://fakeville.tumblr.com/

12.29.2012

a Wallflower

“It's just that I don't want to be somebody's crush.  
If somebody likes me, I want them to like the real me, 
not what they think I am.  And I don't want them to carry it around inside.  
I want them to show me, so I can feel it too.”



---- Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower





12.23.2012

I don't need an ice cream cone.


Drew: You're kind of great, Claire. You do know that.
Sort of amazing, even.

Claire: Oh, come on!
I don't need an ice cream cone.

Drew: It's not an ice cream cone.
What's an ice cream cone?

Claire: You know, "Here's a little something to make you happy, something sweet that melts in five minutes."
I'm completely cool with anything you want to say or not say, I don't need it. Besides, Ben is coming in tomorrow.
Do you want to hear my theory?

Drew: Of course.

Claire: You and I have a special talent, and I saw it immediately.

Drew: Tell me.

Claire: We're the substitute people.

Drew: The substitute people?

Claire: I've been the substitute person my whole life. I'm not an Ellen, I never wanted to be an Ellen. And I'm not a Cindy either. Although Chucks love me.

Drew: I'm sure they do.

Claire: I like being alone too much. I mean, I'm with a guy who's married to his academic career. I rarely see him. And I'm the substitute person there. I like it that way. It's a lot less pressure.


----Elizabethtown









I need a road trip too. Too bad i can't drive. (sigh)

12.15.2012

a love letter before the end of the world


To my dear love,

Where the hell have you been? I'm sick waiting for you. Before it's too late, I have some last words to say to you: 
I'm sure that you are quite satisfied with your current situation (or just being very lazy), for you haven't tried hard enough to find me. Well, you can either stay wherever you are, be with whoever you are with right now, maybe it's not going to be the end of the world after all, and maybe you'll live happily ever after without me. Maybe.  Or, you can take a chance. Come to my arms. Go on an adventure with me. And I promise you that we'll have the most amazing 5 days in the rest of our lives. 
If fortunately the world doesn't come to an end too quickly, we can figure out other things afterwards. :)

to be honest,
I don't believe in the end of the world
as I don't believe in love, 
not just yet
(and now that I'm writing here the radio is playing Britney Spear's Till the World Ends, creepy..)

but if it is going to be the end of the world
and if you are in fact the love of my life
why not give us a try?
so this is my proposal to you.


Yours sincerely-- (not yet, but will hopefully be) forever and ever and ever,

Me


p.s. Mind the time, darling. We don't have much days left. Tick-tock.


12.06.2012

糗事筆記

昨天上課的時候覺得手酸,於是趁老師面對黑板的時候伸展了一下筋骨
就當我十指在背後交扣、兩手臂輕輕向後伸展的時候,內衣的扣子突然鬆開!!瞬間進入了一個很詭異的狀態,不過還好我的外衣很鬆,完全看不出來胸前有什麼異狀(也沒人在看啦)
外形雖說是沒什麼差別,但感覺上整個很不舒服,比沒穿內衣還詭異。如果今天是坐教室最後一排後面沒人我一定會若無其事地想辦法找機會把它扣回去,偏偏我又坐在第一排!於是我不斷地在教授寫黑板全班大概在認真抄筆記的時候以假抓背的姿勢企圖真扣內衣,好死不死最近天氣冷又穿超多!我無法隔著毛衣順利掌控在襯衫和背心底下的內衣背帶(是叫背帶嗎?在肩膀的叫肩帶,在背後的依推理應該叫背帶吧?),屢屢失敗之後我索性放棄,後來的課都在有點心神不寧的狀態下度過,只能說很慶幸當天沒有報告需要上台...

今天把這件事跟我媽講,還自己說奇怪之前上課也常常偷伸懶腰阿怎麼以前都沒開,是不是我軀幹瘦了~連扣最緊那格也會鬆
殊不知我媽馬上潑我冷水說:應該是妳本來就沒扣好吧

哼哼



11.30.2012

the run-of-the-mill chit-chat


- Have you ever felt like you're about to let everybody down, including yourself, but you just can't help it?

- I've been watching this crazy series in which everyone is batshit ridiculous, like insane! They all have this nervousness that each of them either cannot get out of, or simply deny its existence by acting like a jerk.  But there is an honesty in it, weird but true.

- I guess every 20-something in our generation is in a way self-destructive.

- And in the show, there's this girl Marnie, this self-obsessed and insecure little prude who's so wrapped up in her own shit and doesn't know what she wants. At first I just don't like her, she irks me somehow, but then there's this moment in the show that I suddenly realized she's exactly me. That I am HER.

- I sometimes wander if we are all crazy, you know, in a secret way. Suppose that I hurt myself every night at home, then in the morning I go to school or to work and look perfectly normal, no one will notice what I've been doing to myself. They don't know it, because they don't see it. And people rather not care for the things they cannot see. This is our society.

- I know. But isn't it true that whatever you've done and no matter how much you hated yourself, in the morning when you wake up, when you open your eyes, you feel hope? that today is going to be a new start. Everything will be fine.

- Maybe.

- Why do you hate yourself?

- I don't know. Probably because I cannot be the person that I want to be.

- Who do you want to be?

- Someone... happier? Someone who can actually do something. You know what, that't why I cannot believe myself. How could I be unhappy? I don't have the right to be unhappy. I live in fucking Paris. Every time I find that I like one thing and that I'm going to do something great about it, I end up finding myself unqualified to do it. I cannot make myself good at anything I like. Do you have any idea how pathetic that is?

- You know why I watch so many movies and series all the time? I guess it's because it feels better to live in somebody else's story, to live in someone else's life than mine. It always felt pretty bad when the movie's over. A good movie usually takes me several hours or even days to come back to the reality.

- I guess we are both a mess.

- Yep. And so is everybody else.











11.29.2012

魚對鳥說


今天特別想念你。

雖然常常想到你,但不常想念
因為想念應該是關於過去
但我們沒有太多的過去
至於未來,還在霧裡

想念你的時候我會聽張懸
它讓我覺得誠實
卻又不用去分析和檢討什麼已經失去探討意義,但仍然真實存在不因為時間空間外在的動盪內在的變化的膽怯的空虛的逃避而變質或褪去的,我對你的感受

即使我們分別住在海和森林裡,即使後來的人取代了你,也永遠無法取代這樣的感受
為此我充滿感謝
因為你曾經在我笑的時候看見我的淚水,在我哭的時候陪我一起憂傷
你說過你喜歡看我悠游
現在的我常常在海裡看著你飛,那樣子真的好美,天空好藍

張懸繼續唱道
沒什麼我已經以為能夠把握  而我 不再覺得失去是捨不得 有時候只願意聽你唱完一首歌
在所有不被想起的快樂裡
我最喜歡你



11.24.2012

蛋跟奶的啓示

有天和班上的保加利亞同學中間下課去買午餐,在麵包店排隊的時候他跟我說他那天不吃任何蛋跟奶製品,我很迷惑想說如果是吃蛋奶素的人不是應該不能吃肉只能吃蛋奶?所以不吃蛋奶是...某種飲食法嗎? 別忘了這裡是法國,所有麵包店裡的所有三明治都有起司或奶油、所有的點心蛋糕餅乾派都是蛋跟奶製品,然後所有的店都在賣三明治或點心或派!當下有種穿著泳衣排隊進游泳池同伴突然對你說他不能碰水的感覺。好吧我有點誇飾了當然到處都還有麵包,所以永遠都還有啃麵包這個選項,我只是想表達絕對不會有御飯團或関東煮或便當這種東西。最後他請老闆把帕尼尼裡的mozzarella拿出來,所以就只剩番茄了(把帕尼尼裡的mozzarella拿出來根本就和把漢堡裡的肉拿出來是一樣的道理)

邊走邊吃的路上我問他為什麼不吃蛋奶?

他說只有今天而已,每個禮拜三。
緣由是因為好幾年前的某一天,他突然發覺自己好像從來沒有很規律的持續做一件什麼事情,沒有真正的好好掌控自己,於是他就下定決心,一星期有一天不吃蛋奶製品,後來維持了很久,他就決定再更進一步,把那天定在禮拜三,所以他就這樣維持了好幾年,一直都沒有破戒。即使搬來法國避開乳製品根本是自找麻煩但還是不想打破這個維持了很久的“習慣”。


我一開始聽完覺得非常的被inspired,因為我也正是這種”從來沒有很規律的持續做一件什麼事情“的人,標準的五分鐘熱度狂,潛意識反今日事今日畢分子。如果我只想到這兒就停止,可能可以把這位同學的行為當成一個榜樣,竟然可以持續這麼多年每週的某天都做某一件事,It's really something. 但我越想越覺得這整件事有點有趣,也可以說是哪裡有點怪怪

一是沒理由的選擇不吃蛋奶製品很有趣。
我曾經因為口蹄疫爆發有好幾個月不吃豬肉;由於禽流感爆發有好幾個月不吃雞肉;還有一次看到一篇文章說牛奶對人體有害於是有半年沒喝牛奶;但如果要我突然決定停吃某個東西一輩子,我可能要猶豫很久才能終於做出決定不吃哪樣東西(當然不能是羊起司之類的原本就不吃的東西也太沒誠意)。但重點是要決定的這樣食物一週還只停一次!那豈不是更難決定了,因為停好像跟沒停一樣,但其實又是真的不一樣。這種藕斷絲連又沒有重大意圖的事情我好像無法做到。如果好比說,每週三不吃晚餐,然後把錢存起來當捐贈基金,或是單純為了減肥都好,要有一個目的,或者一個意義,我才有辦法。

第二是對於這個習慣竟然可以持續好幾年感到很有趣。
有趣的點是,如果這個習慣是“每週三讀一篇文章“或是”每週三去運動一小時“或是”每週三不抽煙“或是”每週三撿起路上的一張垃圾“之類的,都可以造就點什麼,但每週三不吃一樣無關痛癢的東西,就只是證明了”我可以做到每週三不吃某樣東西“而已,有這麼大的力量跟耐心卻做了這麼小的一件事情,實在是太可惜!



我回到教室就把這個蛋奶事件跟緣由講給另一個同學聽,她只說了一句:他好奇怪!
然後我竟然可以思考這個事件思考了這麼久還打成網誌真的是想太多









11.18.2012

things I picked up in France that I really like about

1. Watch non-subtitled films
2. US tv series (kinda addicted to this one)
3. Random dancing, on my own, in my room (or with girl friends)
4. Synthpop
5. 果泥 
6. Pinterest


and they don't have anything to do with living in France, funny I know.


11.17.2012

Her hair might not be flowing like a mermaid.


- Katheryn:  I bet you get into these dramas all the time, like with Jeff and me, where you cause all this trouble and you have no idea why.  You’re doing it to distract yourself from becoming the person you’re meant to be.

- Jessa: Which is who?

- Katheryn: She might not look like what you pictured when you were 16.  Her job may not be cool.  Her hair might not be flowing like a mermaid.  And she might really be serious about something, or someone.   And she might be a whole lot happier than you are right now.



----Girls Season 1 Episode 9 “Leave Me Alone” 


11.16.2012

a girl I met in the subway

I met a girl in the subway.
We were standing on the subway platform waiting for a train. She was listening to music through earpiece. The first thing that drew my attention was her face. Covered partially by her brownish blonde hair, there was a kind of serenity under that pale skin. A pretty girl. And young. Maybe only 15 or 16.
She didn't notice I was looking. Then I saw that she was holding a walking stick. Maybe she had injured her feet or something, I didn't think much.

The train came. People all went forward, and I suddenly found that she was blind.

I was quite shocked for a very long while and cannot stop looking at her on the train. Sitting an aisle away, she slowly folded the stick (it's foldable) and put it away in her bag. Sitting there looking like everyone else, just another girl you see in the subway train everyday.

So many emotions struck me as the train took me home. I cannot imagine how much courage it takes to step into a world that you cannot see.  Somehow I felt I'm even more lost than she is.
I've taken too many things for granted. I need to change.

11.14.2012

Love, a story

In the winter of 2011, photographer and furniture designer Ana Kraš flew from her home in Belgrade, Serbia, to Los Angeles, where she’d been sent by a European magazine to photograph artist-musician Devendra Banhart. Within five minutes, he asked her to marry him. Despite her initial impulse to flee, she stayed—and the two have been together ever since.  


source

11.12.2012

mediocre

Yes.
It's you. Admit it damn it.

11.11.2012

a faith

Religion is like a blind man looking in a black room for a black cat that isn't there,
and finding it.   ---- Oscar Wilde


I think love is probably about the same thing.


10.31.2012

活著真好!

今天睡得飽飽的起床,煮了在家裡媽媽早上都會煮的燕麥粥,還配了片土司、香蕉、一點核桃杏仁果當早餐,開了莫札特電台,邊聽邊讀著ppaper business,像在某個台灣平日悠閒的早晨。讀到了幾篇很棒的專欄以及世界上一些最新的創意,吸收了好豐盛的心靈食物。

突然覺得活著真好,學習真好,25歲真好!

未來還有好多好多的機會,可以為這個世界做好多好多的事,即使只是發揮一點點的影響力,都可以讓這個世界更美好。活著、年輕、真的好幸運!我要努力地珍惜、好好地運用


10.22.2012

quote

"I'll never be happy with anyone else as long as you walk the earth."



---- Matthew to Marry, Downton Abbey season 3 episode 1


10.21.2012

so,

- Concentration problem. As always.

- 眼睛開始無法對焦

- bad memory

- 我的fashion design,styling and trends課老師長得像穿著PRADA的惡魔裡的光頭設計師的瘦高nice版

- 食物瓶頸

- Never learn to say the right thing to the right person at the right time

- 始終無法對無趣的話題真心地提起興趣,也無法假裝感興趣

- 還好我不打算(也不需要)取悅任何人

- so many things in this world. so many to learn.

- 力有餘而心不足

- people who have too many happiness

- 慣性

- 反慣性

- After all you are not special.

- Isn't it interesting that we treat different people differently. I mean we always say we treat everyone fairly, but never in the same way. 就算是穿同樣的衣服去同一個地方吃同一樣食物看同樣的風景,跟不一樣的兩個人度過的時光,就是不同。甚至即使對方對你說了同一句話,激起的感受也不會一樣。No one can replace another person.

- 巴黎的天氣根本是倫敦!

- 破壞狂事蹟:繼遺失愛錶之後改戴爸爸的錶,上禮拜錶鏈接頭整個掉下來,所幸被我修好,不知道可以撐多久(待續..)

- Sometimes I can't help feeling that the more I learn about fashion, the more I found it superficial. well, sometimes, just sometimes.

- 對於 資 訊 爆 炸 的焦慮持續


 They're only words  
 Don't have to shout to be heard  
 I have not seen the light, for days  
                                                               Moment has gone  
 I'm not the best at moving on  
 Nothing to say, no one would listen anyway, anyway  



THE STAVES - Icarus





10.13.2012

電影筆記。Remember me

Tyler: "Gandhi said that whatever you do in life will be insignificant. But it's very important that you do it. I tend to agree with the first part."








非常意外是這麼好看的一部片,而且好看的點完完全全不在於男女主角的感情發展(或長相?)而是父子父女兄弟兄妹親情整個故事線,最後真的雞皮疙瘩眼淚鼻涕到不行太厲害了,沒有想到我也有會來推薦Robert Pattinson飾演男主角的電影的一天,真的好意外 哈哈





9.27.2012

電影筆記。In the Valley of Elah

“Wouldn't it be funny if the devil looked just like you? ”

我們是怎麼從一個純真的嬰孩,學會殘忍?

戰爭所遺留下的、所造成的,絕對超越肉體的殘缺,而是心靈的死亡。





















One of the most heart-breaking films I've seen.
而且是那種會令人不太舒服的心碎。


演員陣容很棒,是Tommy Lee Jones跟Charlize Theron,還有戲份不多的Susan Sarandon

而且看一看居然看到Franco客串,整個冒喜,雖然出現片段短到不行,只能說命中注定遇到你,緣分天注定XD(正好今天黃書林在fb尋問Franco片單的紀錄,當天馬上添加一筆!)

但整體來說還是非常非常令人難過的一部電影,尤其看電視法文配音版更加令人難過(咦)
不得不稱讚一下法國電視台France 2跟France 3的選片真的令人贊賞,上週末放了Ryan Gosling跟Anthony Hopkins演的破綻(Fracture)、跟同樣Anthony Hopkins還有Brad Pitt演的”Meet Joe Black“也都好好看~ 而且播完還會有影評賞析,很有趣,可能怕觀眾看不懂(?)但我其實蠻不喜歡講評的,比起來聽電影配樂回味一下比較適合剛看完的心情

私心多放兩張Franco的照片嘿嘿

































P.S. 看IMDb說電影的title是從聖經出來的
“Takes its title from the Bible - Elah was the valley where David met Goliath.”
好好奇有什麼含義?!有誰可以給我解答嗎~


9.24.2012

I can always be found.


I won't run far.
I won't run far.

I can always be found.

If you need me,

I can always be found.

If you want me to stay,
I will stay by your side.

I won't run far.

I can always be found.


---- Liars - The Other Side of Mt. Heart Attack





I cried so hard when Adam is taken into the surgery room, the music pushed my emotion to the edge.. anyway, totally LOVE this song and the lyrics.


9.23.2012

關於鯨魚,和巴黎。

基本上我是一個很容易因為物資缺乏而焦慮的人
比如說冰箱總是需要堆滿東西,家裡食物櫃一定要放滿滿的,文具一定都得有至少一個備份,藍筆要維持在兩枝,衛生紙兩卷以上,低於2這個數目我就會心神不寧。最好樓下就有一間seven讓我24小時都可以緊急補貨

這就是為什麼我必須住在大城市,鄉村阿小鎮阿這些大眾運輸不發達不會開車就沒有腳的地點對我來說都是禁地。基本上法國禮拜天沒人上班這點已經深深的考驗我的理智線;禮拜一不開、中午休息兩小時、常常讓我撲空的銀行也是壓力來源的重點之一

好在託全世界的觀光客的福,巴黎比起法國其他的地方還算“方便”一點點(只有一點點)
至少禮拜天市中心還有機會逛到街、補到貨(但百貨公司還是沒開的別傻了);而且還有很多博物館美術館咖啡館可以去走走晃晃~ 比起來里昂的生活真的乏味太多(之前說過想念里昂的話馬上拋諸腦後)咦不是很愛自稱宅女嗎這回怎麼嚮往城市漫遊了起來?這你就不知道了,越是宅越是容易一不小心就用罄家裡的生活物資的(像是ㄧ邊看影集ㄧ邊不小心吃完一整包零食..),而且出門遛搭有益宅女身心健康發展好不好

住是要住在大城市裡,但是一提到旅遊,我最嚮往的,還是碧海藍天大堡礁北極光大峽谷或是一望無際的草原,很渴望被大自然震撼
(好吧 想去紐約不算,紐約有Franco跟Joe)

所以剛剛看了俸瑜的whale watching那篇很有感觸,
彷彿我也聽見了鯨魚拍打水面的聲響、看到了那濺起的白色水花
仿佛我的腦袋裡也只剩下 鯨魚,和海
好羨慕
恨不得現在眼前就是一片海洋


雖然沒有有感而發出很多文字,但心靈上的沖擊是無法比擬的
還是要以鯨魚之名紀念一下~




9.21.2012

最近大事

不知不覺地就7點了,過了下班時間,仍然沒有新的信件,明天又是週末,卻莫名的鬆了一口氣.. 終於可以放鬆一下了
不應該是這樣子的吧
事情沒有辦好應該要很緊張不是嗎?但是能做的都做了,就只好等了
這幾天的日子都是這樣過去的,每天都在寫信打電話要資料填資料寄資料等資料
度過了前陣子沒電的日子,還有搬家,整理,恍然一看日期發現自己從今天開始正式成為法國的非法居民
其實也只是居留證過期了,卻好像變得很嚴重(好吧其實有點嚴重)

一直到最近開始需要處理自己大大小小的文件,才深深感受到變成“大人”需要面臨的種種”手續“,住在家裡的時候只要專心讀好書,吃飽飯;現在房屋合約、電費、保險、房補、銀行轉行、學校註冊、學生保險、延簽證...突然變得要清楚自己大大小小一切的事情,
因為不管辦理什麼,都需要abcde..好幾樣文件,才能換得另一張紙
說穿了人也只是幾張紙而已
像是辦居留證,需要8樣資料,缺一不可,缺了一樣就拿不到”身份“,沒有身份,就跟不存在一樣

寫到這裡,我當下想到了一個關於非法移民偷渡問題的法國電影,以及神鬼認證傑森包恩的一百個護照,但似乎都大偏題
其實我想說的是我是怎麼決定信耶穌的(恩所以一開始就有些偏題)

簡單來說,其實我一直都有“跟神說話”的習慣,就是在遇到無助的情況、或是事情超越自己力量可及的時候,會祈求神的幫助,只是一開始也不知道那叫做”禱告“。大概是小時候受到媽媽的影響,曾經有一段時間,媽媽在天主教醫院當義工,那時候我常常去那裡玩,那裡有很多親切的修女阿姨,但是我們家從來不去教會(在我不太可靠的記憶中..),我媽也不會說自己是天主教徒。接著長大後漸漸看到世界上悲慘的種種,常常疑惑,就會告訴自己這是一個沒有神的世界。但在某些時候,還是會下意識地向神禱告
出國以後,自己需要面對許多生活上的大小事,也遇到了不少困難,又漸漸開始了禱告的習慣,但仍然不願意被貼上信仰的標籤,不想將自己歸類。一直到上週到達巴黎住所,發現被斷電,只好借住朋友家,並且在聯絡通電上一直很不順利,當時我就禱告說,如果能讓我今天房間來電的話,我就願意接受這個信仰

後來當天就順利地等到電了

當然也可以說是運氣好,但當時我的心裡卻踏實的知道是禱告被聽見了,並且在接下來的幾天,心裡都有安穩的感覺,在處理一堆繁雜的事務上都不感到害怕,即使前幾天很迷糊的簽證到期了還無法備齊延簽的資料,也是從容的趕緊聯絡事情準備文件,沒有害怕。以前總會因為恐懼而把自己搞得心慌意亂,這次卻一點也沒有,好像體會到了“信心”是怎麼一回事

後來想想,其實自己認識的人裡面,一些很好的人、以及我很喜歡的朋友,都是基督徒,自己好像也沒什麼理由要排斥成為基督徒,所以就決定信耶穌了,希望不會跟我媽的聖母瑪利亞衝突,我也是蠻喜歡她的~XD









9.08.2012

電影筆記。easy A





What can I say, I LOVE Emma Stone, and Patricia Clarkson and Bryce Jenkins as parents is just awesome!

但就是個十分青春又十分校園的青春校園喜劇囉

btw, when did Penn Badgley become so cute?! 在GG裡完全沒在注意你阿Dan




9.07.2012

電影筆記。The Blind Side

M: -So you want me to go to Tennessee?

L: -I want you to do whatever you want. It is your decision, Michael. It's your life.

M: -What if I wanted to flip burgers?

L: -It's your decision. It's your life.


























生活中總有太多的愛被忽略。大家都在尋找跟證明自己的價值,從工作、收入、外表、他人的眼光、評價,我們總是等著外界用他們的標準來衡量自己,期待被認可,但什麼才是生命中真正的價值?

The Blind Side 提醒了自己,家人無條件的支持和愛,絕對不是理所當然
而是多麼的幸運,和幸福






8.31.2012

life back to normal.. hopefully

總算把電子機票印出來了
拖了好多天
當然本來就要回去的,當然。 但印出來了從電腦螢幕到一張真實地拿在手上的紙了,才有‘成真’的感覺
該回到現實了 五味雜陳
雖然捨不得,但也很期待新學期即將學到的東西;好像距離想做的工作性質又近了一點點?希望是拉
而且快去了就代表快回來了~


新生活新城市新氣象,要好好認真才行
Paris I'm coming!
巴黎 你等著瞧吧 我要好好吸收你的日月精華 哼



picture from fuck the system by We don’t care about the young folks on Flickr.

8.29.2012

across the universe.









pictures from photographs and memories


其實我默默的很愛宇宙風!什麼太空星球銀河系之類的都是我的菜,可能有彌補到小時候志願當太空人的缺憾(但科幻片星際大戰等我超不愛就是了)
之前找asos上宇宙風的t-shirt好少,而且還好貴;後來巧遇marketplace裡的一個boutique,專門在賣手繪的galaxy圖案的衣服跟配件,我超級覬覦,但還是好貴買不下去.. 剛剛亂連亂逛blog發現好多太空風的圖片好開心~趕快貼來這裡
順便應景附一下Beatles的Across the universe拉拉拉


THE BEATLES - ACROSS THE UNIVERSE

Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup
They slither wildly as they slip away across the universe.
Pools of sorrow waves of joy are drifting through my opened mind
Possessing and caressing me.

Jai Guru Deva. Om
Nothing's gonna change my world


Images of broken light, which dance before me like a million eyes,
They call me on and on across the universe.
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box
They tumble blindly as they make their way across the universe.

Jai Guru Deva. Om
Nothing's gonna change my world


Sounds of laughter, shades of life
are ringing through my opened ears inciting and inviting me.
Limitless undying love, which shines around me like a million suns,
It calls me on and on across the universe

Jai Guru Deva.

Nothing's gonna change my world





8.25.2012

quotes from Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

“We had everything to say to each other, but no ways to say it”


“But I still couldn't figure out what it all meant. The more I found out, the less I understood.”


“Why didn't I learn to treat everything like it was the last time. My greatest regret was how much I believed in the future.”


“I hope that one day you will have the experience of doing something you do not understand for someone you love.”


“In the end, everyone loses everyone. There was no invention to get around that, and so I felt, that night, like the turtle that everything else in the universe was on top of.”


“Mom told me, “It probably gets pretty lonely to be Grandma, don’t you think?” I told her, “It probably gets pretty lonely to be anyone”


"You can't love anything more than something you miss.”


“Even if I don't like what I am, I know what I am. My children like what they are, but they don't know what they are. So tell me which is worse.”



'Why do beautiful songs make you sad?'
'Because they aren't true.'
'Never?'
'Nothing is beautiful and true.”



― Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

8.05.2012

向前

"以下是我今天聽到最可愛的一段對話

男:如果我們沒有在一起,你覺得我們會是朋友嗎?
女:不會。
男:為什麼?
女:因為我喜歡你。"



今天無聊偷偷發樓楊祐寧的fb看到的
好可愛

*

回到台灣的我是另一個我.這是每次回來後想起,出去後又忘記的發現.
暫時稱此我為比較台的我好了,vs 比較法的我
比較法的我由於去法國當兵總是處於備戰狀態,兵來將擋水來土掩,面對大前方只有當下,沒有過去,而未來則是一直在變的未知數.你所能做的只有一次做一個選擇,然後任憑它把你帶往哪裡,再從新的基地開始,做新的選擇,承擔接下來連帶的後果.一次走一格,在棋盤上

至於比較台的我,由於時間比較多(時間永遠都在不夠和太多中無法取得平衡)於是常常想著我是什麼?我是誰?我愛的?愛我的?想成為的?想做什麼?該做什麼?能做什麼?
常常緬懷過去,計畫(趕不上變化)當前,擔心未來﹔想很多(想太多!),想做的事很多,想吃的東西很多,想見的人很多,願望很多,很多,比較很多,檢討很多,徬徨很多,但身邊的溫暖也很多
想把握的很多

好希望自己能夠勇敢一點
也有足夠的能量可以照亮他人
他 她 還有他 
還有妳 你


其實我也是有很多很多的愛的,和真摯,在宇宙的真空裡好安靜,好想要吵吵鬧鬧
可以相信我嗎 這一次 可以擁抱我嗎

我也好想要大步向前走向愛走
所以不該自怨自艾 要拿出最好的自己
迎接即將到來的



*(這篇網誌是馬拉松耶原來)


關於我愛你

你眷戀的 都已離去
你問過自己無數次、想放棄的
眼前全在這裡
超脫和追求時常是混在一起

你擁抱的 並不總是也擁抱你
而我想說的,誰也不可惜
去揮霍和珍惜是同一件事情
我所有的何妨 何必
何其榮幸

在必須發現我們終將一無所有前
至少你可以說
我懂 活著的最寂寞

我擁有的都是僥倖啊
我失去的,都是人生
當你不遺忘也不想曾經
我愛你


----張懸 關於我愛你


7.11.2012

So pick me, choose me, love me.

one of the scenes that I always remember





Meredith: I lied. I'm not out of this relationship. I'm in. I'm so in, it's humiliating,  because here I am, begging—

Derek: Meredith, just...

Meredith: Shut up. You say Meredith and I yell, remember?

Derek: Yeah.

Meredith: OK, here it is. Your choice, it's simple, her or me. And I'm sure she's really great. But Derek, I love you. In a.. really, really big... pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you.
So pick me.
Choose me.
Love me.





:)

「存在於未來的完結」。

”存在於未來的完結“ ---quote from

7.09.2012

the unattached







 by OSAMU YOKONAMI



quote

天蠍從來沒有真正的快樂過從來沒都不可能忘記一點點的傷痛他們是傷和痛的堆加體他們的傷痛很綿厚 很悠長 但外表卻很堅硬所以他們看起來很快樂 很燦爛

”他們執著於那份完美的愛情,那份現世中可遇而不可求的完美的愛情,那是份來自生命底處的信念。“


























6.25.2012

偶像的重要?

本人最近真的非常迷韓國偶像
說來其實有點莫名其妙
一開始真的只是無聊,看了一齣韓劇覺得女主角很可愛
就隨便找了youtube上她有參加的一些節目來看,結果意外發現韓綜怎麼這麼好笑!於是就一直看下去了~然後又發現綜藝節目裡有可愛的來賓,就開始發樓來賓跟來賓的團體、以及團體主持的綜藝節目(都好笑到不行,大家都好沒形像!比起拖戲拖不完的韓劇,韓綜實在是太好看了!)所以就沒完沒了一直惡性循環看下去了...

說迷其實也說不上迷戀,(還是個很善變的迷妹,應該會被真正的fan打) 沒有迷到想要買海報貼在家裡的程度(咦我好像貼過瑛太的XD)就是跟迷Franco Joe 瑛太的等級差很多,比較像是看鄰居葛格底迪耍寶看得很開心,有時候還會覺得怎麼這麼蠢或是拜託不要再裝可愛了,但就有一種很貼近的感覺

之前朋友迷SJ的時候我超級不以為意的(現在可能還有點?哈哈)
一開始因為玉澤演而開始看2pm的節目也都很想快轉其他成員的部份XD 對於少女時代也是非常的無感,但後來發現大家都好蠢好好笑!有幾個一開始看到覺得很不討喜的人後來也發現個性很好~ 看了很多他們生活上的影片(外加節目上互相爆料)之後才知道大家平常私底下跟舞台上的形象都很不一樣,其實都是很努力很辛苦的姊姊哥哥弟弟妹妹們,經過好幾年練習生的訓練這樣出來的,而且同公司的練習生大多在出道前就認識,連不同團體彼此間的感情都很好,有「大家庭」感覺~  另外就是韓國偶像們的外語能力!(插播一下澤演小時候在Boston長大英文呱呱叫,也有參一咖出演日劇~) 都會出英文或日語單曲不說,一個團裡一定有會說英文/日文(甚至是中文)的成員,實在是從一開始成立就已經放眼國際很可怕,不得不佩服韓國娛樂事業真的是非常的強大阿


總之結論是偶像好重要,為我最近的宅女生活帶來好多的歡樂!
迷的莫名其妙也好開心~~ 這個世界還是需要偶像的~~


ps
另外意外發現我原來是很容易被第一印象蒙蔽的人!
然後又會因為蒙蔽而不想去了解,
因為不了解而不喜歡
(即使喜歡了以後也很善變阿XD)

5.25.2012

la vie, c'est difficile.(翻白眼)

每次都說在法國生活是修身養性,但是怎麼好像越養越沒耐性?
是說現在已經對於大排長龍的隊伍免疫,對於攀談的無聊路人免疫,對於滿地狗屎免疫,對於法國人的辦事效率低落免疫(?),對於不耐煩的服務人員免疫(好吧'幾乎'免疫)<--補充說明一下,這邊對於免疫的定義絕對不是啦啦啦好開心什麼事都沒發生噢耶而是嘆口氣翻白眼自認倒楣日子總要過下去,生氣也只是傷身體自討沒趣沒人會理你,事後超市買個甜點吃下去ㄧ肚子氣也就消了(然後小腹就長出來了..)

但是目前本人最難克服的一項還是答非所問,對,或許很難想像到底是什麼情形,先說一下這裡的答非所問不是法文的對話,是英文!當然如果是法文的話很有可能答非所問的人是我(自首)。我真的不知道為何答非所問踩到我的雷,但我就是很受不了一些在專門處理外國人事物部門工作的人的英文令人匪夷所思,而且即使我用法文寫信去,對方還是硬要用英文回信來,重點是還不知道在說什麼(吼)

例如
由於負責管理我們學程的秘書小姐Sophie常常不知為何下午經常(自行)提早下班,所以為了避免撲空,我寫信問她這禮拜下午“幾點”過去找她比較方便,結果她回信說 
You can pick up the transcript each afternoon this week except on Friday afternoon. 
沒錯,”幾點“始終成謎(翻白眼)
Sophie的個人最高紀錄是寫過一封信給全班,但每個人對於此信的解讀都不太一樣,於是大家在fb熱烈辯論她到底在表達什麼意思最後派出代表寫信問她(翻白眼)

好吧Sophie就算了,至少她人還不差(而且也有點習慣她的不知所云了)



前陣子租了暑期的巴黎公寓,預訂跟付錢都還算順利(付錢永遠是最順利的相信我,去年請學校幫忙找宿舍,一天到晚寫信催我匯房屋訂金,訂金一匯過去我連寫了三封信問宿舍消息都沒人鳥我)公寓付款玩收到仲介寄來的收據,收據上建議最好要保房屋保險,還附了保險的連結這麼方便,點進去得填住宿資料這時候才發現還不知道公寓的確切地址,於是回頭寫信問仲介公寓住址

結果對方回信說
You have the link of the insurance in the payment receipt which we sent to you.
...
這...(吼)
阿我就跟你說你給的連結連到的保險公司需要住址才能保阿(翻白眼),要我點同一個連結的意義何在啦?就算不是要保險,房客想要知道租的地方的住址不是很合理嗎(再度白眼+頭上不知道幾條線)




ps 最後挽回一點法國人的形象,不是所有人都很difficile(困難/難以相處/難搞)的,我也遇過一些超級nice的法國人,像是這個月開始上的法文課的老師Natalie脾氣就超好超級有耐心難能可貴,馬上榮登我本年度最愛老師<3


5.17.2012

serendipity

Valentino Couture

Gaultier couture


Valentino Couture dress



Elie Saab couture gown
Valentino dress




Definitely love love these dreamy dresses! Don't even know if they have a name for this kind of dresses? Absolutely gorgeous! Wish i could have a chance to wear it/them someday (although they sure look more suitable for runway or red carpet..) but first I'll probably need some stomach cramps for a month to become bony...