GO. SEE.

GO. SEE.

10.22.2010

18/10

今天又看了一次 Le fabuleux destin d’Amelie Poulain ,不過是法文字幕版本。
很多字都看不懂聽不懂但一點關係也沒有,還是一樣的好看~ 都忘了它有這麼好看了!有些電影就是很值得偶爾復習一下。
教授在台前講解的一副很盡興的樣子,台下我一樣拼拼湊湊抓單字猜他在講些什麼,但很神奇的享受在其中,
在這個每天還是不停讓我感受到挫折的語文裡,好像有聽沒有懂在某種程度上也算是一種溝通。
總之這樣坐在這裡聽講讓我有真正在大學裡上課的感覺,很懷念。每天上法文課比較像是在補習,就是全神貫注不停地吸收所有聽到看到的,然後衝撞妳原本僅有的,很像魚缸裡的小金魚被放生到大海,怎麼游都沒有邊際,
但也只能拼命的游阿游  游阿游……

進入一個新環境、新的生活圈,很多長久以來習慣成自然的東西就會赤裸裸的浮現出來,想忽略都無法,然後才會意識到人性/人心的奇妙和脆弱。
其中最令人感到心有餘而力不足的,應該是“分別“吧,
膚色的分別、種族的分別、國家分別、語言的分別。
人似乎只要進入到一個群體,就會自動開始區分你我;氣味相投的注定會走在一起,不合的必定分開,但在這之前,無可避免的,外表始終是我們首要的參考依據。

當一個全新的個體出現在你的面前,在還沒有開始交談之前,對方就已經被自己的潛意識貼上了他是日本人、韓國人、瑞典人或法國人之類的標簽,在充滿國際學生的環境裡,這樣的想法是無法避免的。只是有很多時候根本沒有機會好好的認識一個人、瞭解的還不夠多,對對方的印象就會停留在一個非常粗淺的階段,然後不知不覺下了某個結論,或做了一個分類。

每次意識到這件事都讓我感到非常的難過,

或許因為自己在想的,正是不希望別人會抱持的看法。

所以我都會告訴自己,要盡量去接觸不同的人,
其實這也是一項有趣的活動。像是偶爾下課有機會也會和班上的中國同學聊天(即使仍然強調自己是“台灣人”),或許口音不一樣,但實際上他們並沒有比較難相處。這裡真的各式各樣的人都有,宿舍有法國人、黑人、羅馬尼亞人、塔吉克人...什麼人都有,很多都非常熱情有善;相較之下,也不是每個台灣人都很好相處。
實際去接觸不同國家的人,和坐在電視機或電腦螢幕前面看其他國家的新聞大事或電影真的是完全不一樣的感受。當你們面對面交談的時候,其實是很貼近的,很不可思議(當然前提是語言要通...)

有時候會訝異距離和不了解的力量,是怎麼將讓人與人推的那麼遠,
又是怎麼讓不相識的人們互相贈恨、或是過度美化



最近很愛聽的總統夫人Carla Bruni



10.20.2010

C'est drôle la vie.

C'est drôle la vie. Quand on est gosse, le temps n'en finit pas de se trainer, et puis du jour au lendemain on a comme ça 50 ans. Et l'enfance tout ce qui l'en reste ça tient dans une petite boite. Une petite boite rouillée.


----Le fabuleux destin d'Amélie Poulain, Dominique Bretodeau 






Life is funny. When you're a kid, time never ceases to crawl, and then overnight it was like 50 years. Children and all that remains of it lie in a small box, a rusty little box.

10.12.2010

I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else



You're a part time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on you're back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Here is the church and here is the steeple
We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me
So why can't, you forgive me?
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I will find my nitch in your car
With my mp3 DVD rumple-packed guitar
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu du

Up up down down left right left right B A start
Just because we use cheats doesn't mean we're not smart
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

You are always trying to keep it real
I'm in love with how you feel
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage
You want more fans, I want more stage
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Don Quixote was a steel driving man
My name is Adam I'm your biggest fan
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Squinched up your face and did a dance
You shook a little turd out of the bottom of your pants
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you







剛剛聽法國廣播電台聽到的
馬上就知道是JUNO的歌
好神奇 完全就已經忘記的事了


很可愛的一首歌


我知道我該來紀錄一下法國的生活
但實在累積有點太多
不知從何說起了
而且每天都好累喔
剛開學每天都好挫折



9.24.2010

stranger

couldn't recognize the words i wrote,
guess they couldn't recognize me either.

9.21.2010

we will end up in the same place in the end.

裙子有點短。
但三個公車站的距離也短的令人懶的把外套從包包拿出來、攤開(有1/2的機率還要翻面)、再放在腿上,偏偏又一屁股坐到一個會曬太陽的位子,右頰上唯一一個淡棕色的斑一定就是這樣來的,沒錯,一定是這樣,誰叫你每次都要選右邊靠窗的位子,每次。

一抬頭,陽光正好從兩棟大樓之間穿了過來,對上了已經瞇成一線的眼。

那首歌竟就這樣在耳際響起。
像無意間觸發了某個開關,是一首從來不曾喜歡的歌,
然後,一個念頭閃過-- 一個故事就這樣跳到我的思緒裡。
我想要寫一本小說。

連個架構都沒有,只是單純覺得會是一個有趣的故事,或是劇本,或許短的只能當散文;畢竟腦海階段,跟付諸文字階段,常常有著無法跨越的距離。就同人與人之間一樣。
但這會是一個值得被寫下來的故事,我想。

9.15.2010

stop and start!

今天無比焦慮到不行。

但不是月經來(其實剛走)
反正身心處於一種隨時都可能爆炸的狀態
也不知道是什麼原因

剛打開手機月曆
發現今天正好倒數兩個禮拜
原來。
但我行李還沒收 海運也還沒打包
眼鏡還沒配
甚至簽證都還未接到領取通知 (好吧這一項我也無法努力)
然後還有不想赴的約  跟想赴還沒約的約
所以我想是我的潛意識在焦慮
恩

9.09.2010

Sit me down, shut me up









Ten decisions shape your life,
you'll be aware of 5 about,
7 ways to go through school,
either you're noticed or left out,
7 ways to get ahead,
7 reasons to drop round,
when i said ' I can see me in your eyes',
you said 'I can see you in my bed',
that's not just friendship that's romance too,
you like music we can dance to,

Sit me down,
Shut me up,
i'll calm down,
and i'll get along with you,

There is a time when we all fail,
some people take it pretty well,
some take it all out on themselves,
some they just take it out on friends,
oh everybody plays the game,
and if you don't you're called insane,

Don't don't don't don't it's not safe no more,
i've got to see you one more time,
soon you were born,
in 1984,

Sit me down,
shut me up,
i'll calm down,
and i'll get along with you,

Everybody was well dressed,
and everybody was a mess,
6 things without fail you must do,
so that your woman loves just you,
oh all the girls played mental games,
and all the guys were dressed the same,

Why not try it all,
if you only remember it once,
oooh ooooooh,

Sit me down,
shut me up,
i'll calm down,
and i'll get along with you,



----The Strokes - I'll Try Anything Once





love the song
and can't stop watching this clip again and again
i like the way it just floats 
slowly and softly
like wind 
simple
but real
like nothing really happened
or what happened doesn't really matter